I'VE MOVED!!

Hey guys!
      This is just to inform you guys that my blog has been moved to wordpress. I've fallen in love with the way my blog looks over there. My new address is ihundasmusings.wordpress.com. I hope you guys like the new blog as much I do. All my old posts have been imported. Please follow the blog and try to comment, I'd appreciate that a lot! Thanks and see you around. x

Be Happy

Hello all!!!
       How's it going?? Good week?? I hope everyone is feeling great. Because I feel amazing! It's been a.. great week. Started off really slow, but picked up at the end. And I've been having a ball (since Friday of course). I've done a lot of thinking this week, not that that's anything new, I'm always thinking, it's actually a problem. Well, again I have a lot to say today and just as a warning this post might be a long one because I'm really excited at the time of writing this (I'll tell you why if you read till the end ;)). If I keep having too much to say, it might actually become a problem. I mean there's only several ways to refer to things I learned in the week and I'm running out of titles so don't panic if you see a post titled ''untitled''. So, I'll briefly talk about the low points of my week and move on to enumerate the highlights, because who wants to dwell on the bad stuff, right?
      I had a strange beginning to the week, probably because I was unprepared, I was basically too lazy on Sunday, all I did was study and clean my room at 2am. I didn't cook or have any meal plan set up for the week. You see, I have a bit of OCD with these things and I like to be prepared, to plan ahead. Some people are blessed to be able to be (that sounds so nice) spontaneous. I'm not like that and if you're the same way, you probably understand me. I felt lost and rushed through Monday and Tuesday and even part of Wednesday. I was irritable and easily discouraged. I considered dropping out of school because I felt too cool for school (ha!), I just wasn't sure what I'd do if I dropped out so I chilled and kept studying. I tried to organise my life on Wednesday evening and I felt better the next day and the rest of the week. Maybe it's just me but an organised mind can only flourish in an organised person and it doesn't hurt to always be prepared. Procrastination feels great, but the panic afterward, not so fun. I still procrastinate though, sometimes.
      Now onto the good stuff, after the massive response to my post Lessons my friend Nastya encouraged me to write more personal stuff, I quote her ''isn't that the point of a blog?''. So, guys, there might  be some oversharing happening around here soon. I also experienced first hand the feeling of wanting something so much it scares you. My dreams for my future seem to be changing  evolving. I'm still thinking about it, but I assume it's normal at a younger age, the things we want change, the kind of people we like changes, our style changes, our choice of music changes and all that. Change is scary. I remember reading '' Who moved my cheese?'' by Spencer Johnson (more info here ) when I was nine or ten and not quite grasping how scary change can be. But now, I understand better- Change. But, change isn't always bad. I actually think it's hardly ever bad because things might seem bad because they're different, that's the basis of racial prejudice, of all kinds of prejudice. But there's definitely something great about everything, everyone and even if that isn't true sometimes, only thinking like that gives you such a fresh perspective on life, it keeps you happy, hoping and that's good. My conclusion? Change is good. I've therefore decided to not be afraid to love something or be passionate about something or to work hard at something as long as I love it.
      The highlight of my week? Lindsey Kelk . She's an author, google her if you're curious. I've basically been obsessed with her this past week, with her books actually. She's amazing. Especially if you're female, you HAVE to read her books. So light, easy, witty. Amaze-balls. Soo, after reading three of her books in a week, I just had to email the lady and the awesome part? SHE REPLIED!! Here's what she said:

   

My fan  girl moment, totally justified. Uhm did you see the part where she called me talented? I completed my first short story this week also and that makes me very happy. I'm trying to write more and improve my writing. Reading and writing take me to unimaginable places and I forget all my stress for a while. I'll be sharing my short story sometime this week when I'm brave enough.

     You can see why my week was amazing. Also, I want to thank all those who wrote me about my last post, saying how they related to it, how much they loved it and how inspired they were. I'm so grateful. I have no words to express gratitude. Thank you. I did some retouching on my blog (is that even right?). Well, I revamped it. I hope its easier to navigate (and the follow button is in clear view). I discovered the magic of audio books this week also. Totally a way to indulge my laziness, just listen. My favorite shows came back this week. I started religiously following this season of American Idol, finally! Now can someone tell me why I shouldn't be happy? Whenever you're down, remind yourself of all the awesomeness that is you and yourself and all the little achievements and all those who love you. I think I just found today's title people. *pops champagne!* Be happy, nobody, nothing is worth your tears. Have an amazing week, I plan to xx
  **PS Inspiration of the week The Inspiration That is Lazaro Arbo .
   
   
      

Memory Lane

Wide streets

Many faces

Dead, alive, sad, happy

Some loving, welcoming

Some jealous, angry

Smooth paths sometimes

Broken hearts piercing the sole of my foot

Like wicked gravel

Carcasses littering the path sometimes

Thick forests of old grudges

Happy times

When life was easier

No big choices

When all we had was joy and laughter

We didn't know how to hate

Sad memories 

of those we lost along the way

Those who died

Those who strayed

Those we drove away

And then I'm back in the present

To what my life is now

To all the people here now

Looking to the future; to making more memories

Memory lane in my rear view mirror

Lessons

          Hey guys!
    How is everyone doing today? How was your week? I hope you all had a great week. I had a good week, for the most part. You know, I always wait till Saturdays to write about my week. I find that looking at things after taking a step (or two) back really helps. You see things that you never would've seen in the heat of the moment, you can evaluate things you said and plan better responses for the future. You come to appreciate things that went wrong and you can see clearly the lessons learnt. You make peace with spilled milk and decide to do better. I wait till Saturdays because I want to keep the blog unbiased and drama free. I want to have a lesson or more from every week to share. I like to see the humor in every thing and my personality is such that I'm rarely able to do this in the heat of the moment. I can be quite serious. I see the quirky stuff when I take a step back and ramble a bit.
     I learnt so much this week and I'm having trouble coming up with a title for this post. The highlights of my week would have to be:
  1. Reuniting with my favorite threesome, my best girlfriends from college and just gabbing about nothing and everything for three hours straight. I miss them so much. They're all in different time zones and we ended the conversation promising to have regular catch up sessions (fingers crossed). The next day, I had a lengthy conversation with my best girlfriend here and she had the same experience- catching up with an old friend. And she had the same feelings of pure joy and just hopefulness that they would indeed stay in touch as promised. In both our cases, these were people we hadn't spoken to in quite a while and when we did talk, it was just like old times, like nothing had changed. My lesson : With real friends, time is just an illusion. It always feels like no time has passed. There might be initial (5 minute) awkwardness that comes with re acquaintance, but then it feels just like old times. So if you had a true friend, a real friend, don't let time or distance be a barrier. Try to stay in touch. Maybe not daily or weekly conversations, but check up on each other, send sweet messages. Be there. Be present in spirit. It feels wonderful.
  2. Having my cousin over for a night. I'm the kind of person who loves her space. I like my company. I like to have time to ponder every scenario. To imagine stories. To listen to music. Read. And just breathe. No voices. Just my thoughts. I discovered that people time can be good as well. I  mean I have people time normally, just not with so many people and not so often. But being with someone else, cooking for an extra mouth or just asking if they need something felt nice. I mean if it was for three weeks, I might get tired, I know. All I'm saying is it helps to think of someone other than yourself sometimes. We all need time. Everyone should learn to like their company. To love their company. But we need people every once in a while. Just so we don't forget how to feel.
  3. Opinions are just that, opinions. Everyone is entitled to their opinions. Your opinions do not have to become someone else's rules. I can't exactly say why or from what situations I learned this. I can say that I learned this from both myself and other people. I've always been very opinionated. Not so vocal about my opinions, but opinionated all the same. I'd rather write what I think than say it. Only certain people's opinions actually matter to me. I don't need to say all of their names, but they know that their opinions matter and they don't throw around their words carelessly because they know their words matter. A ton of people's opinions actually mean nothing to me but I'm not going to throw that in their faces because while their opinions do not matter, they have a right to have one. My point? Respect everyone's opinions but only a few should shape you. And if you know your opinion matters to a person, don't throw hurtful words at them or be dishonest with them because they're counting on your honesty. And sometimes if your opinion isn't asked (when it isn't a life or death issue) swallow your opinion.
   4. This week, someone told me they were inspired by the music on the page of one of the (many, I know) social networks I'm on. She called it ''my music''. I was floored. I immediately went to see what songs were on there. I couldn't help thinking how we affect others by our words, actions, dressing, music, poems and everything else. It's amazing how we all have an opportunity to INSPIRE. We should never take this for granted. You never think that anyone is watching you. Or going through your phone or ipod. Or reading your blog. But there's someone, for everyone. Maybe it's one little person, a younger sibling, a friend. Anyone. Live like the world is watching and learning. There's someone watching all of us. We may not inspire Him, but we make him proud. Live to inspire.
   5. Thank you. So many people met me this week and went ''you didn't tell me you had a blog!''. Even my closest friends!. And my number of views here skyrocketed. Thank you. For reading all the silly rambling. And if you made it down here. I write more poems nowadays because I'm terrified of saying how I actually feel in real sentences now that I know I good number of people actually read this thing.Thank you again. I appreciate it. Sorry for all this deep talk and emotional rambling. I was feeling inspired. I'm looking forward to hearing from anyone who would be willing to add their thoughts to any of the things I wrote about in this post. Experiences..in person, on Facebook or your comments here.
          Have a lovely week guys! And remember to inspire. Not to bring others down. Just inspire, And love. And laugh. And be happy. xx

***P.S Please listen to Justin Timberlake's ''Mirrors'' here. That song just became my Number 1 feel-good song!!

Thump Thump

My heart falls out of step

Every time I see your face

And whenever your voice is heard

I feel my stomach drop into space

You give me premature ventricular contractions

You make my heart's doorbell ring

With you it's all about the expression

Of all the feelings my heart can bring

Your eyes pull me into your soul

Every time I stare.

My heart you stole

And I'm not sure I want it back in here.

I'm not sure about forever

But right now you're my magic

Who needs forever?

Right now is fantastic.

Priorities

Salut!
      How's it going people? I hope you all had a good week, cos I did! It was stressful (as usual) but most of it went really well. Honestly, it was really an uneventful week and I'd rather not bore you with all the details. Plus most of my favorite shows are on hiatus, which sucks. And I've basically passed out the past two nights, as opposed to sleeping. I just collapse from 9pm till about 5am the next day. I dare say my body is very grateful. This week there's been a bit of thought as to making my life more... productive. I've returned to list making, using post-its around my room to remind me of my priorities and it's working (in case you were wondering). I'm learning more French and I've gotten the hang of knot tying (**pops champagne!**) and I did pretty okay on the tests **insert fist pumping**. I'm feeling more grateful everyday, than I've ever felt at any point in my life.
       This week, the thing that hit me the hardest is the importance of having the right priorities. Different things are important to different people and while it's not my place to tell you what should be first place in your life, I'll tell you this : Get out a sheet of paper or you can use a notepad and think about the most important things in your life. Write them in order of importance. Why? Your priorities say a lot about you. You'll never really know what's most important to you until you have them staring back at you in ink. When you've figured out what's important to you, your life will be simpler. You don't have to stop doing things because they're less important, but it will help you know what to bump out if you need to make important decisions. Remember of course that priorities change. However the most important things often remain the same. Most people will say God is the most important person in their lives. But it goes beyond just saying that or even convincing yourself. Is that the truth? Do you live life in a way that shows that you value that relationship? Or is it only a verbal proclamation? Think about it. Whatever is most important to you, make sure it's the right thing. Avoid misplacing priorities. It also helps to review that list you've made from time to time and maybe move some things around, or even delete things which do not add value to your life.
         In less exciting news, I took some pictures on my phone while I was taking out the trash during the week. They're basically just boring pictures of the sun >.<

       I'm now going to start working on the things in my to do list. The plan is to get them all most of them crossed by the end of tomorrow. Ohh and we've got a public holiday on Friday next week! It's going to be a shorter week this week. Have a great week everyone and thanks for your comments and for reading all the posts! xx

   

LOST-- A Poem

Stuck at crossroads

Unsure

To turn left?

To turn right?

To move forward?

Or take backward steps?

No one to ask

No one to help

Despair

All alone

Stomach lurching

Sweating bullets

Unable to return

No memory of start point

Confusion

Eyes darting

How did you get here?

No knowledge of how to advance

Lost?

Too many mistakes made?

Focus.

Acknowledge your mistakes

Advance

There's no room for you in the land of the lost.

-A