Thump Thump

My heart falls out of step

Every time I see your face

And whenever your voice is heard

I feel my stomach drop into space

You give me premature ventricular contractions

You make my heart's doorbell ring

With you it's all about the expression

Of all the feelings my heart can bring

Your eyes pull me into your soul

Every time I stare.

My heart you stole

And I'm not sure I want it back in here.

I'm not sure about forever

But right now you're my magic

Who needs forever?

Right now is fantastic.

Fear

  Hearts that feel squeezed in the chest,

With moisture filling the palms of their hands.

Feeling out of breath.

And feet that are losing their grip on land.

Paralyzed minds

Unable to think clearly

Thoughts entwined

But no words, sadly

Those afraid to dream

Those afraid to fly

Afraid to be under their own steam

They lay in bed and sigh

Too scared to love

Too scared to trust

Too scared to show they love

Too scared to show they trust

Terrified of failure

No balls to face reality

Too much fright to be sure

Of your own ability

Afraid of all the wrong things

Unaware of the right fear

Which with wisdom 

Is in the same kingdom

Everything else can be conquered

With a little faith

And some trust

And some love.

    

      -A

Love A Little

Reeling from disappointment

Crushed by betrayal

Broken by loss

No tears left to cry

Rising from the ashes

Building walls even higher

Walls without a gate

No door, window or even a crack

Closing up from touch

Like a delicate mimosa flower

Fleeing from attachment

An island terrified of hurt

It's time to live again

Throw caution to the wind

Try a little, Trust a little
  Love a little

-A            

                               

P.S Song of the day: Kaci-I will learn to love again (So appropriate right? )

BETRAYAL-- A Poem

Trust violated

Circle broken

    Hearts mutilated

      Denial beckoning.

 I feel my idea of us shatter.

In my discombobulated mind,

I hear pieces of my broken heart clatter.

Feeling as worthless as an orange rind.

Memories clearer under the mist of deception

How had I never seen?

I allowed my heart to perform repression;

Blind my eyes in my head since

I accept, I was a fool

I accept, I have been played

I accept, its time to pull away the wool

I accept, I have been betrayed. 

                                 


                                                                   -Eme Umesi A.